The story of my Journey through the minefield of weightloss and personal discovery.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Iacta alea est

For some time now, I've been thinking about getting a tattoo. Nothing obvious, just something that represented who I was. It was something that my bf's and I talked about years ago when we were all first doing WW. Getting matching tatts of butterflies, in the colour of our choice, with the chinese symbol for friendship in the middle. We never quite got around to it, but the idea of getting a tatt lingered in my mind for some years.

More recently, I've refined my ideas somewhat to something that was more about me. Something that better reflected my personality and my life's journey so far.

" iacta alea est " Latin, roughly, for "the die is cast". Over time, it's become better known as "let the dice fly". Essentially it means what's done is done, there's no going back. Julius Ceasar spoke the words to his troops just before he crossed the Rubicon in 49 AD. Back then, the Rubicon river formed one of the boundaries that marked out Rome proper. Crossing it with troops or paraphenalia of offiice was considered a declaration of war. Caesar did not want civil war, but he felt it had to be done. The Senate was refusing his requests. He felt as though he had no choice. He did what needed to be done and moved forward.

I've studied Roman history, in quite a bit of depth and studied Julius Caesar in particular. I've also learnt some Latin. A Latin phrase, particularly one from Caesar, suits me perfectly. Iacta Alea Est, in particular, suits me.

For me, there is no going back. There's only moving forward. I will not go back to being the unhealthy, overweight, unhappy person trapped in a relationship, a life, I can't stand. I will not go back to being the submissive person I was. I will move forward with my life, I will move on with courage and strength and the future will bring whatever it bring.

Iacta Alea Est

The Die is Cast

1 comment:

  1. I've decided that I will not read your blog anymore as it makes me feel bad about the toilet water I've been publishing.
    Love it Kel.